Tuesday, September 3, 2013

i stink at juggling.

I actually can juggle. A little bit.
Tennis balls or bean bags or something.

But right now I'm trying to juggle life.
And I'm failing miserably at it.
Dropping so many balls, it's just ridiculous.

I've made two silly, frustrating mistakes lately that ended up costing us a few hundred dollars.
That's lovely.
One because I didn't research enough, was rushing to make a decision and made a poor choice on our home internet. And then didn't pay enough attention to things I was signing and didn't ask enough questions. Verizon isn't my favorite right now. It's my own fault and I realize that, but I was hoping their customer service might be a bit better since I've been a customer for 18 years. Boo.

The other mistake was just because I apparently forgot how to read a calendar and missed a deadline to turn something in. Something that would have let me move over on the pay scale. And things are changing next year, so using my points to move over won't be an option for next year. That's not my favorite, either.

I might have fed my children cereal, string cheese and sliced cucumbers for supper tonight. Just because I couldn't handle the thought of doing one more thing.

We spent hours unpacking boxes and organizing this weekend. But there is still so much left to do. Living in this state of unorganization makes my brain feel crazy. (Not that my life is normally super organized... I just like the thought of knowing that everything HAS place where it is supposed to be. Right now there are so many things that I don't know where they are going to live right now. I have so many great goals for organization and structure and routine. I just don't have the time to put those things in place. =)

Life is overwhelming right now. I hate that.
I feel like I'm doing a lousy job of everything.
That makes for not so happy days.

Tomorrow I'm dressing all in yellow.
It's hard to have a bad day when you're dressed in such a happy color, right?
(It's like I'm Chrysanthemum or something... )


Frau said...

Yes, wear YELLOW, friend! Things WILL be more streamlined soon...I just know it! :)

flower power momma said...

I'm sorry you've had the frustrating things. blah.no fun.
fyi, you will be gorgeous in yellow, tomorrow or any day.

hang in there, it's only a 4 day work week. :)

Melissa Jensen said...

We are too much alike--I wish I could come and help you in some way. I hate to be disorganized too!!
My sister always tells me, how do you eat an elephant?? and I am to reply "one bite at a time" I totally get it though and I am going to pray for you morning and night to bring you serenity. Hugs Miss Amy!!

Ben said...

Hang in there. Praying for peace and strength for you all.

jennifer said...

You can do it Amy! Man I feel you, right down to the dumb mistakes that cost money... (mine are more in the late payment/late fee department)... and yet we just keep plugging away and in the end it works out alright. I hope you are sleeping well out in that country air and can find some time to catch up on life at some point soon. Sending a hug and a prayer from WA.

Amy said...

Thank you for all the sweet thoughts and prayers! I have felt them the past 2 days!! :)